{"id":342,"date":"2023-03-26T20:25:20","date_gmt":"2023-03-26T20:25:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/?page_id=342"},"modified":"2025-11-19T12:38:13","modified_gmt":"2025-11-19T12:38:13","slug":"fragment-nga-ditari-i-nje-prifti-fshati","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/?page_id=342","title":{"rendered":"Fragment nga “Ditari i nj\u00eb prifti fshati”"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Nga buron kjo bindje se periudha e f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb na qenka kaq e \u00ebmb\u00ebl, kaq rrezatuese? Nj\u00eb \u00e7ilimi ka vuajtje si t\u00eb gjith\u00eb, dhe \u00ebsht\u00eb, me pak fjal\u00eb, krejt i \u00e7armatosur kundrejt dhimbjes, s\u00ebmundjes! F\u00ebmij\u00ebria dhe pleq\u00ebria e thell\u00eb duhet t\u00eb quhen dy sprovat e m\u00ebdha t\u00eb njeriut. Por nga ndjenja e pafuqis\u00eb s\u00eb vetes, f\u00ebmija nxjerr p\u00ebrunj\u00ebsisht parimin e hares\u00eb s\u00eb vet. Ai e l\u00eb veten n\u00eb dor\u00eb t\u00eb s\u00eb \u00ebm\u00ebs, kupton ti? E tashme, e shkuar, e ardhme, gjith\u00eb jeta e tij, jeta e t\u00ebr\u00eb mbahet nga nj\u00eb v\u00ebshtrim, dhe ky v\u00ebshtrim \u00ebsht\u00eb nj\u00eb buz\u00ebqeshje. E pra, djalosh, n\u00ebse do t\u00eb na linin t\u00eb b\u00ebnim \u00e7\u2019t\u00eb donim, Kisha do t\u2019u kishte dh\u00ebn\u00eb njer\u00ebzve k\u00ebt\u00eb lloj sigurie t\u00eb ep\u00ebrme. Mos harro se secili do t\u00eb kishte pjes\u00ebn e vet t\u00eb telasheve. Uria, etja, varf\u00ebria, zilia, asnj\u00ebher\u00eb nuk do t\u00eb jemi n\u00eb gjendje ta b\u00ebjm\u00eb djallin zap, merre me mend! Por njeriu do ta dinte veten bir t\u00eb Zotit, ja mrekullia! Do t\u00eb kishte jetuar, do t\u00eb kishte vdekur me k\u00ebt\u00eb ide n\u00eb rradake \u2013 dhe jo me ndonj\u00eb ide t\u00eb m\u00ebsuar ve\u00e7 n\u00eb libra, \u2013 jo. Sepse kjo do t\u00eb frym\u00ebzonte, fal\u00eb nesh, doket, zakonet, zbavitjet, \u00ebndjet e gjer te nevojat m\u00eb t\u00eb p\u00ebrunjura. Di\u00e7ka e till\u00eb nuk do ta pengonte pun\u00ebtorin t\u00eb mihte tok\u00ebn, dijetarin t\u00eb g\u00ebrmonte n\u00eb tabel\u00ebn e algoritmeve, madje as inxhinierin t\u00eb sajonte lodra p\u00ebr t\u00eb m\u00ebdhenjt\u00eb. Mir\u00ebpo, do t\u00eb kishim shfuqizuar, do t\u00eb kishim \u00e7rr\u00ebnjosur nga zemra e Adamit ndjenj\u00ebn e vetmis\u00eb. Me morin\u00eb e tyre t\u00eb zotave, pagan\u00ebt nuk ishin edhe aq idiot\u00eb: kishin arritur, t\u00eb pakt\u00ebn, t\u2019i jepnin njer\u00ebzis\u00eb s\u00eb shkret\u00eb iluzionin e nj\u00eb mir\u00ebkuptimi trashanik me t\u00eb padukshmen. Por rrengu tani nuk pi uj\u00eb. Jasht\u00eb Kish\u00ebs, nj\u00eb popull ka p\u00ebr t\u00eb qen\u00eb gjithmon\u00eb popull kopil\u00ebsh, popull f\u00ebmij\u00ebsh t\u00eb gjetur. Qartazi, mbeten ende me shpres\u00eb se do t\u00eb njihen nga Satanai. I g\u00ebnjen mendja! Eh, sa shum\u00eb kan\u00eb p\u00ebr ta pritur Babagjyshin e tyre t\u00eb zi! Mund t\u00eb fusin edhe k\u00ebpuc\u00ebt n\u00eb oxhak! Djalli tashm\u00eb \u00ebsht\u00eb lodhur duke i mbushur me nj\u00eb vandak lodrash mekanike q\u00eb sot shpiken e nes\u00ebr dalin nga moda, tani nuk u v\u00eb tjet\u00ebr p\u00ebrve\u00e7se ndonj\u00eb paket\u00eb t\u00eb vock\u00ebl me kokain\u00eb, heroin\u00eb, morfin\u00eb, nj\u00eb ndyr\u00ebsi pudre q\u00eb nuk i kushton shtrenjt\u00eb. Varfanjak\u00ebt! Do t\u00eb kishin p\u00ebrdorur gjer dhe m\u00ebkatin. Jo kushdo mund t\u00eb arg\u00ebtohet. Edhe kukulla m\u00eb e lir\u00eb prej kat\u00ebr sush mund ta b\u00ebj\u00eb t\u00eb lumtur nj\u00eb \u00e7ilimi p\u00ebr shum\u00eb koh\u00eb., kurse nj\u00eb baball\u00ebk plak gog\u00ebsin p\u00ebrpara nj\u00eb lodre pes\u00ebqindfrang\u00ebshe. Pse? Sepse e ka humbur shpirtin e f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb. Epo, Kish\u00ebs i \u00ebsht\u00eb ngarkuar nga Zoti e mir\u00eb ta ruaj\u00eb n\u00eb bot\u00eb k\u00ebt\u00eb shpirt k\u00ebt\u00eb shpirt t\u00eb f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb, k\u00ebt\u00eb pafaj\u00ebsi, k\u00ebt\u00eb freski. Paganizmi nuk ishte armik i natyr\u00ebs, por vet\u00ebm krishterimi e rrit natyr\u00ebn, e p\u00ebrl\u00ebvdon, e vendos n\u00eb p\u00ebrmasat e njeriut, t\u00eb \u00ebndrrave t\u00eb njeriut. Do t\u00eb doja t\u00eb p\u00ebrballesha me ndonj\u00ebrin prej k\u00ebtyre diturak\u00ebve q\u00eb m\u00eb trajtojn\u00eb si obskurantist, do t\u2019i thosha: \u201cNuk e kam un\u00eb fajin q\u00eb vishem me kostum varrmih\u00ebsi. Fundja, Papa vishet me t\u00eb bardha, dhe kardinal\u00ebt me t\u00eb kuqe. Do t\u00eb kisha t\u00eb drejt\u00eb t\u00eb gjezdisja i veshur si Mbret\u00ebresha e Sabas\u00eb, sepse un\u00eb sjell haren\u00eb. Do t\u2019jua jepja falas, po t\u00eb ma k\u00ebrkonit. Kisha e ka haren\u00eb n\u00eb dor\u00eb, t\u00eb gjith\u00eb at\u00eb hare q\u00eb i \u00ebsht\u00eb taksur k\u00ebsaj bote t\u00eb trishtuar. Gjith\u00eb \u00e7\u2019keni b\u00ebr\u00eb kund\u00ebr saj, e keni b\u00ebr\u00eb kund\u00ebr hares\u00eb. Mos vall\u00eb ju pengoj un\u00eb q\u00eb t\u00eb llogarisni sakt\u00ebsin\u00eb e ekuinokseve apo t\u00eb shp\u00ebrb\u00ebni atomin? Por \u00e7\u2019dobi do kishit nga fabrikimi i jet\u00ebs, p\u00ebrderisa e keni humbur kuptimin e jet\u00ebs? Nuk ju mbetet tjet\u00ebr ve\u00e7se t\u00eb p\u00eblcisni trut\u00eb p\u00ebrpara tubacioneve tuaj. Fabrikojeni jet\u00ebn sa t\u00eb doni! Imazhi i vdekjes q\u00eb p\u00ebrcillni, ua helmatis pak nga pak mendimin mjeran\u00ebve, ua err\u00ebson, ua zb\u00ebrdhul dal\u00ebngadal\u00eb edhe haret\u00eb e fundit. Kjo do t\u00eb vazhdoj\u00eb p\u00ebr sa koh\u00eb industria juaj dhe kapitalet tuaja t\u2019ju lejojn\u00eb ta b\u00ebni bot\u00ebn panair, gjith\u00eb mekanizma q\u00eb rrotullohen me shpejt\u00ebsi marramend\u00ebse mes rrap\u00ebllim\u00ebs s\u00eb bakrit dhe shp\u00ebrthimit t\u00eb fishekzjarr\u00ebve. Por prisni, prisni, pes\u00ebmb\u00ebdhjet\u00eb minutat e para t\u00eb heshtjes. At\u00ebher\u00eb, kan\u00eb p\u00ebr ta d\u00ebgjuar fjal\u00ebn \u2013 jo at\u00eb q\u00eb mohuan, q\u00eb thoshte qet\u00ebsisht: Jam Rruga, E V\u00ebrteta, Jeta \u2013 por at\u00eb q\u00eb ngjitet nga humnera: jam porta e mbyllur p\u00ebrgjithmon\u00eb, qorrsokaku, g\u00ebnjeshtra dhe humbja\u00bb.
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P\u00ebrktheu Romeo \u00c7ollaku
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Nga buron kjo bindje se periudha e f\u00ebmij\u00ebris\u00eb na qenka kaq e \u00ebmb\u00ebl, kaq rrezatuese? Nj\u00eb \u00e7ilimi ka vuajtje si t\u00eb gjith\u00eb, dhe \u00ebsht\u00eb, me pak fjal\u00eb, krejt i \u00e7armatosur …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"parent":0,"menu_order":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","template":"","meta":{"footnotes":""},"class_list":["post-342","page","type-page","status-publish","hentry"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/342","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/page"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=342"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/342\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1031,"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/pages\/342\/revisions\/1031"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/logbook.al\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=342"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}